alternate dream universe?

I had a really strange dream last night. It’s the second time I’ve had an ultra realistic dream about Chad and drugs. He’s much more open about his business in that world and he lives in a bad neighborhood without kids there. We are closer as friends there and I talk to him all the time – I may even have a key to his apartment there. I was out and about and leaving a party earlier that the rest of my friends, and I overheard a conversation at the convenience store about the cops planning to bust a bunch of petty users. They were going to Chad’s neighborhood so I decided to go and warn him but he had just had a crazy party and there were a few chicks still passed out there. I saw someone getting busted just a block away from his house so I was kinda upset that he didn’t take me more seriously, but he is Teflon after all. I figured one of the busts would rat him out. I tried to hide some paraphernalia the best I could and I covered the chicks and locked the door but I left with a heavy heart. I was worried about him and his safety but I was too smart to stay there and get busted myself. There were cops outside in his apartment parking lot when I left so I knew I was smart to have gone when I did. I really do love Chad in this world and that, and I think it’s funny that he’s almost exactly the same in both places.

There was also a whole segment of my dream that involved going to a ‘brothel’ with a super hot guy with the intention of filming part of an adult film. (He may have been based on Nick Manning) This would have been a few hours after I left Chad’s house, since the sun was coming up when I left his apartment. I’m much thinner there and I still date and party with several guys. The man I was with drove me to this place and I clearly knew him pretty well but I’d never been with him that way. It was very exciting and new. It made me want to giggle and scream and jump him all at the same time. We were in a sunken lounge type area that was full of jewel-toned pillows and candles and I think he even lit some incense while I changed clothes. There were a few other couples that entered the building with us (it was early in the afternoon) and each couple went to a different room. Apparently we were all supposed to start at the same time and I woke up before anything commenced. Too bad I woke up – he was hot.

Sometimes I think there really is an alternate universe that I inhabit because the town and its attributes remain relatively the same. It’s unlike Austin Texas but it progresses thru time at the same pace. The same streets and buildings, the same people and friends (many of whom have no counterpart here in the real world), the same dramas (I don’t usually drive there either – but I do sometimes!), and oddly, I have a slightly different personality there. I even beat people up and steal cars there, sometimes in a secret but official capacity. (I get the impression that I am working for the dark side on a for-hire basis) My friends there sometimes chide me about being away for so long or they’ll accuse me of being distant when I’m probably here in the real world. Seriously, some mornings I get confused because that world seems just as real. I even went to my old high school with a friend and I knew where my locker used to be and I mentioned that they had painted and changed the floors. It felt truly nostalgic, and I’ve been to that same school several times in the last 10 years in my dreams. Weird.

Once, I had a long conversation with an old friend there and he was professing his deep love for me and wondering if we would ever be together that way. I certainly loved him back and I was torn between wanting to be with him as a boyfriend and trying to preserve our special friendship. I knew it would crush him if I said I didn’t want him that way but I so treasured our relationship that I knew it would be marred either way. I woke up and started crying. I felt elated and crushed all day. I picked up the dream almost where it left off the next night and we agreed to take it slow but he took it badly and I haven’t seen him in awhile now.